The Deal I Made with God - Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Unfortunately, my story is all too common. I did the unthinkable! I truly wish that those abortion clinics would have been honest with me and told me the truth about abortions, because I could’ve made informed decisions to find other options. I feel abortion clinics are blatantly dishonest with people and it needs to stop. Everyone should know the unvarnished truth about abortion. There’s so much technology today and evidence to prove that it’s not just a blob of tissue, it’s truly the life of an innocent baby. That child did not ask to be here and I’m certain that child wouldn’t want to die. I now know without a doubt that they are babies! It breaks my heart that our society accepts abortions as a right -- a choice. I feel it should never be about a woman’s right, it should always be about a baby’s right!

Back in my day, there were no crisis pregnancy centers available that I knew of, but today there are many. They’re everywhere, with caring people who really want to help. There are wonderful, positive options! How can abortion clinics be helpful when one person is deeply wounded and scarred, and the other one is actually, purposely killed?

Personally, I can’t help but regret that I could’ve honored myself and God if I’d only had the tools. If only I’d have done things His way, it would have saved much regret and heartache. I would never have been put in that position in the first place had I run to God and sought His wisdom. I wish I’d have given my children a chance to live and been able to share their lives with them. With what I know now, I would never have had either of those abortions. I was young and caught up in my surroundings. I now research things before I align myself with them. The more factual information you acquire, the better choices you can make. It’s always best to be well informed, since knowledge gives us the power to make wise decisions – decisions that will bless your future instead of cursing it. Just because many people are doing something, doesn’t make it right!

Hopefully sharing my story will help others. If you’re in a relationship that makes you uncomfortable -- please don’t compromise your integrity or your beliefs, because in the end, it’s just not worth it. If you’re with someone who really loves you, he will honor your wishes. Talk to your partner about pregnancy and abortion before ever becoming sexually active with them. Remember, it’s very possible to get pregnant, even your first time sleeping together. I truly don’t want anyone to ever go through that awful experience. Please be responsible, and don’t allow yourself to be forced to make such a terrible decision under pressure! All the women that I have talked to who have been through abortions say they will never be able to put it behind them, let alone forget it.

If you or someone you know has had an abortion, please consider going to a Bible study exclusively for women who have had abortions, because it’s a safe place where you’ll be with others who know exactly how you feel. If you are not a Christian or not Catholic, please check into this and try it. You have absolutely nothing to lose but everything to gain. It could tremendously bless your life! While there, I chose to be forgiven and set free. I believe Rachel‘s Vineyard is a Catholic Church outreach. There are many post abortion support groups, just research what’s available in your area. You could even contact a crisis pregnancy clinic, who should know the location of a nearby support group.

After all that praying that I did over my little kitty, by God’s grace, I still have him. Seth is healthy and completely healed, and I am extremely grateful.

The truth is that I never wanted anyone to know about this very ugly part of my life. It’s definitely not something you share with others, but the Lord laid it on my heart to share my experience with others! I sincerely hope that one day our society will no longer except abortions -- there are other, much-better options. No one needs to stay wounded or broken-hearted for a lifetime. There is hope and healing. I hope my story can save one life, maybe even prevent someone from being put in that position, or help someone seek healing after an abortion. All of life is a precious gift from God, and we should be grateful and thank the Lord for every single one! I pray that the Lord will use this to help others avoid this unnecessary pain and devaluation of the very life that He has given us!

Psalms 139 verse 13 Good News Bible

You created every part of me; you put me together in my mother‘s womb.